Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Finally

Tomorrow July 15th

at one o'clock
we finally get to meet the girls!

Wanna know something really cool?

We had our interview with their caseworker on

June 15th

at 1 o'clock

at the same exact place!

And we were certified to adopt on

January 15th


Oh, how I love number patterns.

God knows exactly how to speak to me. Loud and clear.

Let's see what He says tomorrow.

Can't wait!

Friday, July 10, 2009

"Show Us Where You Live" Friday - Entryways/Foyers


It is time for the final post of the "Show Us Where You Live" series over at Kelly's Korner. I actually missed a few, either because we did not have a room to fit that week or we were on vacation! One of the rooms we missed on vacation was the Master Bedroom - and I still need to show everyone how we redid that room! Of course, it is still in the works ... but I promise one of these days!

This week is entryways and foyers. I love this area of our house because it features 2 stained glass windows and 2 tiny little rooms! I did not get a chance to take pics today, but was happy that I had taken some during the day last year so you can see the light shining through the windows. The rest of the pics I took tonight.

Here is our front door ... the small gold fixture on the right of the glass is original doorbell that you wind to ring!

Come on inside ... Vanilla is waiting to greet you. The only thing we have done so far to this room is the hardware floors. There was carpet on the floor when we moved in, and underneath was the glue mess we found upstairs in the pink room. Someday we will paint the walls.


Every foyer needs a mirror ... this one may end up in the master bedroom. :) Stay tuned.


This is the first stained glass window to the right when you walk in the foyer ...

This is what the window looks like during the day ...
When you go through the doorway on your left, there is a small staircase area ... which leads up a 2 story staircase all the way to the 3rd floor. There is another stained glass window on the 2nd floor landing. This picture was taken before I painted that wall and applied an "Uppercase Living" word art.
Here is a picture of Jonah last year posing with the word art ... he has to appear somewhere in our home tour!

And a view from the second floor down ...

Here is another picture of the staircase ... I love the banister.
A very cool light fixture ....

Remember the view of the staircase from our kitchen? There are 4 doorways into this tiny little room ... one from the living room, kitchen, TV room, and foyer. We don't really have a name for this "staircase room" but it is kind of like the "town square" of our house. Here is a view from the staircase ... yes, there is a phone cord coming down from the 2nd floor. (you can see it on the rug) We need it for our DSL internet service and there is currently not a phone jack in the TV room. One of our minor little projects we need to take care of! The only thing that lives in this room is this cabinet full of our Fiesta Ware!
Thanks for visiting!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

in the attic

Today was gorgeous.

Blue skies, puffy white clouds, and a cool crisp breeze all day.

The kind of day when you turn off the air conditioning and open up the windows.

After working the morning, I decided it was a perfect day to head up to our attic and do some much needed organizing. The attic can become an inferno in the summer, and so a cool day like today was a great opportunity for me to open the windows and get to work. The third floor of our house has always been a makeshift dumping ground for whatever we do not have a place for at the moment, and since we had been switching around rooms, it was really out of control. I wanted to just put things away - Jonah's outgrown clothing, random plastic Easter eggs, suitcases and bags from our vacation ... you get the picture.

I did not spend a lot of time up there when I was called down by both Jonah and Cory who were working on a little project. I opted to stay with them in the kitchen and cut coupons while they painted a little wooden locker that Jonah had been given for his birthday. Later in the day I made my way back up to the attic, and continued to reorganize and find homes for new things that had entered the clutter ... the closet doors that are no longer in the pink room, the sleeping bags that were in that closet ... and bunches of other things.

And I began to get annoyed.

I didn't notice that I was annoyed at first. I went to the store with Jonah, we unloaded groceries, and we ate a quick dinner. The whole time I was annoyed.

Cory surprised me by coming home early from football. He noticed something was wrong with me. I tried to figure it out and sat with him at the kitchen table while he ate a bowl of cereal. I began to complain about all the stuff we have. I told him that I would approximate that 80% of the stuff in the attic is Jonah's. Outgrown clothing from since he was a baby, baby bedding, baby furniture, outgrown toys, puzzles ... bins and bins of things that he has outgrown. Enough bins to keep Rubbermaid and Sterlite happy.

I continued on with my night and only after tucking Jonah into bed, going back to the attic, talking to my Mom, finding Cory asleep, and starting to read a book did I figure it out.

I know why I am annoyed.

All the stuff in the attic is still there because it is waiting.

It was waiting for a baby.

That didn't happen.

It is now waiting for another child.

And it is still waiting.

And the reason I am annoyed is because the stuff continues to grow. The space in the attic continues to get smaller. Jonah continues to outgrow clothing. He continues to outgrow toys. And it all just waits.

As I was attempting to put things away or find a new place for whatever today, I kept thinking of the girls and who may come to be in our family.

I wonder if the 5 year old would use this LeapPad? It might be great for her to learn to read.

I wonder if we should put this white dresser downstairs, or wait to see if we redo the 3rd floor room.

I wonder if they will play with my old Barbie house.

Is it time to get rid of all these baby toys?

I wonder if I should go through Jonah's preschool toys and only pick out a few to keep.

Will we ever need a crib mattress again?

I actually was looking at a magazine earlier today and there was an article about de-cluttering your house. The thought came to me that I wish there was an article about when to get rid of your child's outgrown stuff. You know how you are supposed to keep all paperwork for 7 years? Is there any guideline for how long to keep your child's items?

Of course not.

Honestly, I am tired of keeping stuff. I am tired of hanging on to things for "just in case". I am tired of having an entire attic full of enough toys to outfit a daycare and enough clothing to open up my own consignment shop.

I just wish I knew what to do about it.

Any suggestions?

p.s. absolutely no word on the girls today. nothing.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

One Huge Pendulum Swing

Three posts in one day? I guess I am still catching up.

The post is actually a surprise to me.

Well then again, today was full of surprises.

In an unexpected turn of events, we were called by our caseworker and asked if we could take the girls TODAY.

Um ... WHAT?

After 3 hours of waiting and talking, we decided that it was still best for us to meet them first. The entire situation was less than ideal for everyone, and we did not feel the least bit prepared to welcome them into our home without knowing if we were willing to adopt them. When they walk through our kitchen door, we want to be able to assure them that they are here to stay.

Today we could not do that.

It was so hard to say no to this opportunity, especially after all that they have been through. However, we were so thrilled to find out that they are currently in a short-term placement and this may expedite the process of them eventually coming to us. It breaks my heart that they have had to move one more time. The next time they moved was supposed to be into a permanent home. So, please say a prayer for two scared little girls who had their world shaken AGAIN today.

There was a moment where I was prepared to send my mom to Target for clothing and somehow get another bed put together.

There was also a moment where I just wanted to say yes so that I could make it all better for them.

I have to consider my family right now. My husband was telling me that he could not deal with this failing because we did not handle everything in the best possible way for everyone. He wants us to know for certain what we are getting into before more children join our family. This certainly felt more like an emergency foster care placement than welcoming new members of your family into your home. We also certainly want to give Jonah more than a few hours to get used to the idea of two sisters. Real sisters, not hypothetical ones. (he still has no idea about these girls)

So, the pendulum swung today from waiting for the initial meeting ... to possibly having them tucked into bed in our home tonight ... back to waiting.


What will tomorrow bring?

Blog Hop Fun - Favorite Photo

I am participating in a Blog Hop this week ... sharing our favorite photo! Wow, this was a difficult decision. I have tons of favorite pictures. However, this is one of my favorites of Jonah, because it was his very first night of football practice and I love the anticipation and energy you can feel from the picture. He is at football camp this week ... so we have football starting already around here!


Check out the other Favorite Photos below ...

MckLinky Blog Hop


Hurry Up and Wait

Unfortunately we have not yet found out the day in which we will be meeting the girls for the first time. We were on vacation one week, and then their Wendy's Wonderful Kids recruiter was on vacation last week. I was hoping to find out yesterday, but still no word from our caseworker. It is hard to believe that yesterday marked 3 weeks since the interview ...

However, I know that these 3+ weeks are not wasted time ... although at times it feels that way.

God continues to make Himself known in so many ways ... and I am continually reminded just how involved He is in this entire journey. One of the main reasons I blog is to glorify Him and to have a living testimony of how He touches our lives every day. Here is what He has been up to these past few weeks ...

Jonah - I shared with you in a previous post how Jonah seemed to take the news of having more than one sibling pretty well. He still mentions having a brother, so we will have to see about that. :) What I have noticed with Jonah is he is so ready to have some more kids around the house. I realize that it is going to be a HUGE adjustment for him, but this summer it is clear that he is yearning for some kid interaction BIG TIME. He does not seem content anymore entertaining himself. Jonah has always loved being around other kids, but he is also was always very content doing his own thing. That contentment seems to be dwindling rapidly.

Cory - This additional time to ponder and reflect on what it could be like to have more kids in the house is perfect for Cory. He needs time to process and so I believe it is no mistake that he has more time to get used to what could happen. He will make random comments to me that lets me know he is thinking about the girls often ... like "I need to get that 3rd seatbelt in the backseat of my truck fixed".

Our House - the biggest news in this area is that we were given a freezer! It is an upright freezer that is now living happily in our basement. I have wanted one for a long time, primarily so I could stock up on great deals on meat and frozen foods when I see them at the store. However, I find it no coincidence that we were given one now. We also are fully aware that we may be fixing up the third floor room rather quickly for another bedroom. In the interview, it was agreed that both girls would benefit from their own rooms, because there is some conflict between them. (more than typical) So, that is also in the back of our minds too.

Their culture - A family I have known for a long time is African-American and they were very excited to find out about the possibility of us adopting the girls. They insisted that I bring the girls to their house to have their hair done and to experience their culture. It was such an answer to prayer for me ... because of the willingness of the family to want to be a part of the girls' lives without me even asking. Although this family has been through a lot, they want to give back to me and that is something I think says so much. They are truly precious to me and find it compelling that the mother was the first African-American child in our state to be adopted by a white family 37 years ago. Again, no coincidence.

Me - well, I am always a work in progress. I find myself making more lists, trying to be more organized ... feeling like the house is way too empty and way too quiet. The sound of children's laughter and squealing is music to my ears right now.

Their names - I think one of the most frequently asked questions I get is about their names. If you know me or have been reading my blog, you know that the plan was to name our little girl Hope. We asked our agency about changing our child's name when we went to the orientation meeting last year. We were told that it was no big deal and that people do it all the time, even with teenagers. It was described as a fresh start.

When the possibility of adopting the 2 little girls was presented to us, we started to consider what we would name one of the girls. We wanted her name to be special and have significance, just like Jonah's name and Hope. We tossed around lots of ideas, and I am not ready to share them yet. I wanted the name to be biblical, however I do not like any patterns in names. I didn't want the names to all start with the same letter ... or have O as the second letter ... or all end in the same sound. I just wanted a name that was from the Bible and that shared some signicance to us. Well, there was a name that did create a pattern ... and I resisted it at first. Then I realized that it was special, and although it was not what I would have wanted .... I was clear that it was the name.

In the midst of all of this, we asked at the interview about changing the girl's names. We did not get a very good reaction. It was more like shock. Their caseworker said that she would not suggest it, or at least do it at first. She said that she believes that someone else changed their names (a pre-adoptive foster family), and then that did not work out and their names had to be changed back. She thought that it might bring back some bad memories to change their names again.

I was bummed ... but I knew that this would not be a reason to stop considering adoption. I put this all on the back burner for the time-being, because there was no reason to worry about it. Last week when I talked to the family I mentioned above, they encouraged me also to keep their names. Their names reflect their heritage, and they have been known by these names for quite some time.

I talked to Cory about this, but did not ask him for his opinion about it. I knew that he would also struggle with this. Naming a child is huge to me. I love names. I love that Jonah's name is so significant to us. I love that Hope would be significant for us. So, I knew that naming our other children was not going to be easy to just let go.

We have not made a decision yet, but I know in my heart what is the right thing to do. Leaving their first names as their names does not mean there are still not some choices. We can change their middle name, and perhaps call them that as a nickname. Eventually, it may become the name they prefer. We can also keep their first names and call them a shortened version as a nickname. We can do all of the above.

Jonah also had some suggestions for a second sister's name ... one of which is Chrysanthemum. I can tell you this much ... that will not be her name. I had to look up the spelling of that one.


"Yes, I know your name
Every prayer you pray
I'm the one who brought you to this place
The voice who sings to you
The hand that clings to you
Oh my child, I've always known your name... known your name"


~ Michael W. Smith

Monday, July 6, 2009

Weekly Highlights

5 Days after getting home from the beach ...

We headed to the mountains
where there is no TV,
cell phone service,
internet,
and
make-up, blow dryers, and curling irons are optional

Instead we tubed down the creek ...



looked for tadpoles


played in the rain


squirted our cousins


went tubing again


roasted hot dogs over an open fire


ate lots of yummy food


launched water balloons


improved our launching form



went back to the fire to make mountain pies and s'mores



daddies made perfect apple moutain pies


ate s'mores seriously


enjoyed pure s'more perfection


ate big bountiful breakfasts


went tubing AGAIN


found monstrous crayfish


took a bike ride and posed at a lookout spot

dressed up in red, white, and blue


put on our own fireworks display complete with a finale entitled "Instant Nirvana"


sparkled


and shined


How Did You Celebrate America?

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